Wednesday, January 24, 2018

The last time I write about you

Hi Dear,

If you are wondering if I still write about you; that will be the last time I ever do.
You have changed a lot in the past few years; gained a lot of weight and your looks changed a lot from the little cute girl I’ve known.

I know I've broken my promise to never leave you. But at least, I still keep some promises to you. Among the promises I keep is to always have a place for you in my heart. I have piled up everything that belongs to you in one tiny room inside me; All the memories, All the suffering, all the sadness and pain and abuse. and inside the tiny room there is still a red rose inside a small box that is covered with sand like a deserted house; I never touch it nor enter this room anymore.
I wanted you to know that this place in my heart though it's for you, you would never find a way back to live in it even if you tried and I know you will never try.

I wanted to say that blaming myself didn't help; blaming you didn't help; blaming humanity and blaming god didn't help either. I wanted to say that this tiny room will always tear my heart apart and shatter my soul with every memory leaking out of it.

I want you to know that I've forgiven you even before any apologies. I have always forgiven you even when I say I didn’t. And that though all the pain you still cause me, I wish you happiness and the love you deserve, and I wish you could find peace in your new home.

Before you get full of yourself, I am not stalking you. I knew about your relationship by coincidence just today. I was surprised that you were loved even though you are a narrow minded and an unbearable person (no offense intended). I want you to be sure that I have given you up a long time ago.

I have found plenty of homes in the past few years and I chose a beautiful haven for me. A girl that I love so dearly. A girl that accepts me as I am and knows how much I care about the people I love.

I kept another promise; I talked to her about you and she hates everything about our story, no one would blame her anyway and no one would blame her for hating you.

I want you to know that she is everything I love about this world and I am proposing soon; So wish me luck dear.

I wish both of us the happiness and the life we have wished to have. I wish that our paths may never cross again and that we'd find the closure we deserve to forget as we forgave.

May this be the last time I cry because of you.
I forgive you and I hope you find the kindness in you to forgive me as well.

Goodbye and Good luck .. My wise friend.

Sincerely,

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